September 2009
9 posts
Confused..?
My head is going left and right. Idek what to think. When he came over yesterday I felt like it was too good to be true. I tried having my guard up and not to do anything that’ll make me more confused then I am. But as soon as he walked into my house there were so much butterflies fluttering in my stomach. Him just holding me felt so warm and I didn’t want to let go. The whole time he...
Impatient
I swear I can’t wait until the day where I can actually care less about him. Everytime I see or hear of his name I get butterflies. I want them dead and gone like foreals. We’re over and he’s moved on so why is there still butterflies? Everything still reminds me of him and I’m tired of it because it still hurts me. Why does everything have to be so hard. It’s so easy...
Sunday Funday!
Sunday I thought was going to be pretty chill but everyone flaked on me. So I was with Justin and little kids. So eventually we ditched them BUT ace was so irritating like foreals. And all day I was sad like come on now -_-. That whole damn park reminded me of him and it sucked because I started missing him like crazy. I love him and want him back end of story.
I'm not sick I'm I'll!
Damn I’ve been sick for days and it is NOT the bidness. I’ve been in bed sleeping most days. And my throat is always burning =\ . I hate being sick, especially when I always have dreams about HIM. I hate it, because he’s over me so I should be over him too. It’s just so hard. I just want to tell him how I feel but the thing is I can’t. I don’t want to be...
Tumbleless
I haven’t tumbled (that word makes me laugh) in a while. Lately I’ve just been so busy. I have school to worry about now and it’s killing me. So much homework I swear. Every single day I have to do hours and hours of homework. School is my first priority now like I never use my phone when I do my homework what a first right?! And I’m trying to keep me busy as possible....
I ♥ mommy!
I absolutely love her. She came back today and surprised me when I got home with pho and a case of Thai tea and to make it like the one at the store she makes home made boba. How great is she? I seriously take her for granted I love her so much thoe! Damn lately school has been so G A Y! Homework is so killer. I have it on a daily and if I procrastinate I’m behind. Ugh honors =\ I really...
The game
After watching all the episodes today, it only made me think of one person and that person is mikko as much as I hate to say it but I want him back. I would go back in time and relive each day from September even if the ending doesn’t change. I could care less! It’s because I still love him, I can’t lie to myself about it and I won’t. I really really do love him. I hate...
September 6th
I feel so stupid. Drinking is not a good idea. Like idk what I was thinking. That night was crazy, but I learn from my mistakes yeknow? Well I was just being hella retarded end of story. No more drinking for me!
Bop!
Okay so I should really stop fake blogging on my old blog. It just makes things worse. Like seriously, you’re calling me a bop? Wthell so totally opposite of what I really am. YOU shouldn’t even judge about my actions because you’re the one… Nvm. But lately I haven’t been blogging because I actually have a life. I really have no time for blogs anymore. I’m a...
